Sharing his thoughts in his blog, Big B revealed how his thoughts were plagued by the recent deaths in family and illnesses of others. He wrote, “plagued by recent passings away in the family.. illnesses of others and the uncertainty of it all crawls upon you in a devastation that unearths levels of sadness within and the inability to do any else” on the recent death of his daughter Shweta’s mother-in-law Ritu Nanda.
Furthermore, he added, “suddenly the most normal acts seem to be so laboured and avoidable and only those that are besieged can understand.. when the mind wishes to break through all of that and run into a canvas protected soft rubbered mattress.”
“When the will and the strength of its bearing is depleted.. then shall one rise again in defiance. That then shall be the revelation of the power of one .. the power hitherto understood by none no more .. except by the own .. that is the writing ever written on stone … in the end, it shall just be me, be I.. and none other..” he wrote.
Big B ended his blog on a bitter-sweet note as he wrote, “when ever did the tear flows of this eye ever flow in the other.. the aloneness of one is the oneness of being alone.. for that be the ethos of life.. none other than the self is responsible for all that it desires to feel, reject, acquire and dissolve.”